Right... IM Happy??

Ok. i no. its weird, i normally post all the depressing things about my life on here. but I feel HAPPY today so im not going to do that.
I cant wait to start the midsummer nights fast :) it will be one of the best things i hav done for myself in a long time :) i cant wait to watch as the numbers slowly tick down. hehe. its like a dirty obsession lol.
well, you may [or may not] be glad to know i have sorted things out between me and my girlfriend. We have agreed that we cannot live without each other, so we are back together now after being on a break for a week :(

ok so i was supposed to be fasting today, but then i rememebered tht i was going on the Midsummer Nights Fast tommorow, so i decided that i would just start to get myself prepared. i only ate exactly 180 calories, at dinner time, that was it. a bit of rice and some fish pie i think it was. but idm as long as i dnt exceed 500 a day as an apsolute maximum then i dnt mind. but from the 8th may to the 1st june i am not eating anything. just liquids. my starting weight was 162lbs. i now weigh 154, which i was shocked at. my target weight [for now] by the end of the fast i would like to be 145, if not less. ill just have to see how it goes tbh, it will take a lot of distracting, but i feel like im ready to do it, i feel like i need to do this.

I cant wait to be light, lighter than dandylion seeds floating in the wind.
ok, i definatly dont wnt to get tht weight, but it is nice to think about it sometimes.
I cant put my finger on why im happy. Meds? Girlfriend? Friends? doing well in my science module? [ i got an A :D] i think all of these things are what my teacher would call 'contributing factors' lol. but i cant physically think of one single thing that has made me this happy. i was mental last night, i was laughing at my laptop screen for no reason? idk,i had a weird moment [i think that one might have been the meds] but it made me realise that there is happiness out there, you jus need to find it. anyone who needs to talk about anything [trust me, im a fucking factfile] you can add me on msn, taryn.j.urch@hotmail.co.uk

Stay safe, and strong, i will keep you updated when ever i can xxxx