Failure, already.

I told myself already that i wouldnt cry today, but yet i already have. my mind is a mess. I Dont know what to do about my girlfriend. i dont want to be with her anymore, but i cant leave her. life is so confusing :'( and the worst part is i dont even think she notices that we are falling apart :'( i dont know what she wants me to do, ive tried being nice, ive given her money, cards, chocolae, me and my family have helped her out when ever she needs it, whether it involves money or not, i just dont know what else i can do to help her :( x this is only going to be a short blog because i cba to do anything today and i am supposed to be doing my english coursework, but i cant do that, im to lazy. god i need some fucking mental help i swear to god! :( x im going to meet her later tho so that we can sort out all of this shit. i hope that goes well, if i doesnt be prepared for me to be in hospital for a few days again :/ x