Failure, already.

I told myself already that i wouldnt cry today, but yet i already have. my mind is a mess. I Dont know what to do about my girlfriend. i dont want to be with her anymore, but i cant leave her. life is so confusing :'( im actually lost. i cant stop myself from crying, everything and everyone is setting me off. But im determined that i am not going to cut, that is my number one promise to myself. ive only found one other remedy, singing depressing love songs really loud, only then i make myself look like a twat.