Im so sorry jazz [if you are reading this, which i doubt tbh] i hope i didnt scare you. :/ Im soo sorry if i did. I got home from hospital at about half 12 last night. The reason being [yet again] self harm. I'm sorry i just had such a shit day. Involving earwigs, thrown drinks, almost throwing up, being shouted at and put in isolation for a lesson I cant put a stop to this stupid addiction :( it makes me sad that i dont have any control. but yet strangely happy at the same time. It is a weird feeling. That i cba to explain because i doubt anyone is reading this anyway. I did a fast from 10 last night and it finishes at 10 tonight. Ive done quite good, being honest, and ive managed to worm myself out of tea. So i guess thats good, right? I dont feel any happier in myself tho, even after fasting and cutting. i should do, that is normally what makes me happy :/ i dont understand.
Thankyou jazz, for everything you have done for me, inlc. putting me in your blog :)
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